My First Obstacle to Overcome

How to Fashion my Goals

I have a lot of visions but no real plan formulated. I don't do well with going with the flow. I don't know where to begin, how to proceed, and when I've actually made progress because I'm in the dark. Unfortunately, my natural instincts are absent the majority of the time. It sucks, but it is what it is. I have to move on. I refuse to allow my shortcomings to sabotage my goals. So rather than trying to unsuccessfully or experimentally harness elements that don't exist in me, in hopes to develop them (a worthy experiment to conduct independently), I've decided to utilize what I already possess. I'm organized. I almost immediately benefit from gaining knowledge. I'm more specific-oriented and manage best when I have a reference. I generally am highly advanced, and yet I lack the basics. Although this problem doesn't regularly become an issue, I do have a disadvantage. Since I'm starting from scratch in a way when it comes to fashion, I wanted to start from the beginning. It's important for me to build a strong structure. Other than that, I really didn't know where to go. I imagined at some point that I'll use ads from magazines for inspiration, but that's free-forming, not what I had in mind. Not that I was really sure what steps to take.

Then, by what seemed like coincidence (I wouldn't be surprised if it wasn't, but then I'd probably be over-estimating my importance in this universe), I received a 40% off discount from Borders. I get a lot of 20% off coupons, but those don't interest me as much because the prices at amazon.com are still usually cheaper. Although my friend gave me a $40 gift card for Borders. I keep hesitating on using it because many products are still cheaper at amazon, so I want my purchases are BORDERS to be cheaper than amazon. Well, this 40% coupon offered just that. I diligently compared prices with a variety of books and ultimately selected The Lucky Shopping Manual: Building and Improving Your Wardrobe Piece by Piece.

There were so many fashion books to choose from, but I ultimately decided to go for this book. I did expect some unplanned challenge waiting to thwart my aspirations. Life wouldn't be life without something standing in the way, right? I was determined, this time, to not allow it to interfere. But I already feel discouraged. My boyfriend and I of almost six years have broken up. In this short duration, I've become a lot more financiall restricted. I'm not so desperate to pursue my fashion aspirations that I'm willing to be financially-irresponsible, but I'm also uninterested in excusing myself from this project because some challenges are standing in my way. After all, that's life. I'm simply turning this entry into a progress report and a reminder to encourage myself.